....Randoms....

Today is the first day in about two months that I haven't been on here. I miss this place each and every passing day, but due to some unseen forces/circumstances I chose to stay away. I've been doing things my way despite what I know the truth to be. I feel like I have dissapointed God in so many ways than one and I don't know where to start from. I keep saying I'm sorry, yet I go back to my old ways.

My Mum's not talking to me right now cuz she saw my belly button piercing on Sunday. We prayed the next day and she outrightly refused to see my face, talkless of giving me a hug. I'm hurt and of course and I know she's hurt also. I can't say I'm sorry either cuz she won't listen to what I've got to say. She belives that that's the beginning of waywardness, when in actuallity it hasn't changed who I am. I've had it for about two months now and she never saw it until Sunday. I don't know what to do or who to call for help so I'm just taking each day as it comes and when she's ready to talk, I'm gonna listen and not talk back until she's done.

I missed you all and I pray this week brings a lot of love your way.

....a year OLDER!

I thank God for anoda year....seriously! If not for Him, I wouldn't have lived to see yesterday. I thank God for the love He has for me and the fact that He still gives me a reason to be alive.

Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, Happy birthday to me! My day started well in the sense that I got calls, txt msgs (you name it!) from various peeps, some forgot.....but that's alright. Being that I had two finals to take, I was awake studying very hard. I got a very gigantic birthday cake from one of my closest friend's (her birthday was last week Monday also). This was exactly the type of cake I wanted, unfortunately I didn't get my Baileys to go with it. I settled with coke with a splash of Ciroc vodka instead. I also.....finally......got my belly button pierced. Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! Got nervous on my way there but it didn't really hurt as much as I thought it would and I didn't feel the pressure until I was on my way back home. But I am glad I did....it feels like I have accomplished some part of my dream.

I got home at about 9pm, took some pain killers and went straight to bed.....didn't wake up until like 5am. Thought I was gonna see Pretty Boi but he didn't show up until today cuz he had finals to tackle also. He got me a Louis Vuitton purse and we're going out to eat later on this evening....well hopefully....lol! All in all it was a good day.....plus I became $22 richer. You can't beat that! Would most definitely celebrate on Friday with the ladies....can't wait!

I'm stressed!

Something happened last week Thursday that will forever stay/live with me. I felt weird and for the longest felt like talking to someone about it but at the same time, I couldn't because......I don't know, I just couldn't! Of course Prettyboi knows about what happened and he's been there through every step of the way. I find it hard to pray to God about it and I don't even know how or where to start from. I hope I'll recover from it and hopefully be able to blog about it someday.

That aside, I'll be a year older on Monday and I'm getting my belly button pierced tomorrow as a gift to myself.....it was a difficult decision to make cuz it was either I pierced my nose or my belly and I chose the latter. I have two finals that day....one being cumulative. I hate it! I pray that God helps me to stay focused. After my exams I don't know what's gonna happen. I know I'm gonna spend that day with Prettyboi but I don't know what he's got up his sleeves. I promised myself that I'll never get drunk but at this point I'm seriously reconsidering that decision. I go home every night hoping to have a glass of wine....well maybe two.....okay three.....or the whole bottle. To be honest I love alcohol but I don't let it get the best of me. I was telling my friends this afternoon how I long for some cake with whipped cream topping, and a chilled glass of Bailey's. Ah what a bliss! Would probably tell Prettyboi to get me some for my birthday.

Okay peeps I have to get back to studying. I love you all!