RANDOM GROANINGS

Where do I begin?
Don't know and I can't say but reality is I need a lot of help right now. I've been questioning my relationship with this guy lately. Not because he's not doing what he's supposed to but I feel like I'm being lied to. I don't know why but I'm going with my instincts on this one. I mean we've been together for two years now and I feel we've moved past a lot of crap that's come our way. I'm happy being with him....don't get me wrong....but it seems that there are certain people who know that we are together and there are certain people who don't....most especially his so called girlfriends. I don't think I'm a jealous girlfriend......all I want is for us to be able to do our thing without people putting their own jara here and there.

I'm so heated up right now cuz of some stupid a$$ shit. I don't know what I can do or what I wanna do about it.....I think I'll just go to sleep and deal with it tomorrow when I'm on my way to school. Okay so tell me why I took a trip to go visit my dearly beloved boyfriend and he then decides to go out to party while I'm there.....it's one of those frat parties and he so loves them.....Trust me I don't mind him going to the party but it would have made better sense if we went there together......the thing is since I don't have shola-shola, it's had to go out to the clubs and have as much fun as I can......well this party requires that you have a state ID and all...it's not like I'm gonna be drinking or anything but then since I don't have a state ID they won't let me in.....trust me I 'm not underage, I'm over 20......but u know this country has some stupid laws that just make you wanna become president someday..... as if that ever gonna happen....I CANNOT GO sha thats all I'm tryna say......I have classes in the morning anyways. Still I'm pissed off as fcuk.

Earlier on sha dude and I had an arguement over him going and how he didn't tell me about the whole party until the day he came to pick me up......but he claims that he told me a day b4 and I said it was cool.....I don't remember him telling me anything like that until I saw him. Besides if he had told me we would have known what to do about it. Oh well he's gone out sha and I'm here listening to songs on sturvs.com.....

I've been in this organization since this semester began and I'm really liking it so far. Obama better win cuz then my hard work will definitely pay off. I'm glad cuz I've meet new pple and we are pretty much on the same page....school comes first tho.....we are supposed to be participating in an event to celebrate halloween....not necessarily celebrate it but we need to come up with some fun activities for the kids that are gonna be participating in it. Hopefully everything goes well!

Enough for now but I have more stuff to talk about, I'll save it for next time......btw I think I feel better.....not a lot better......just better.